- hurting -

I guess it's been a while... this past week has been harder than most in my life.  the puffiness in my eyes from near constant crying is just starting to go away... jesus, thank you for being higher than I.

I leave for school in a month and six days.  that is so strange to me... I'll be living in an entirely different place in five weeks.  I don't really have anything that I'll need for my new room yet (except for my laptop that I'm using right now!), but I'm pretty excited about getting it.  I also can't wait to get my ID card and new e-mail address... I really wish I didn't have to wait until august to take care of that.

I may ruin my life by starting to watch the OC tonight.  I think I have three days to make it through two seasons.  I hope I can handle it. 

I also started reading graphic novels recently.  I'm surprised to say I've become addicted... I guess now at least I'll be able to understand joey and asher when they speak. 

I delight myself in the richest of fare
trading all that I have for all that is better
a garment of praise, for my heaviness...
you are the greatest taste, you're the richest of fare

p.s.  I'm leaving with two of my favorite people on monday to spend a few days in jersey with my dear kansas friend.  words cannot express my excitement... boy do I miss that girl!

p.p.s.  don't see pirates of the caribbean late at night.  it made me want to drown myself.

p.p.p.s.  please come to my house on sunday... I would really love to see you.  ;)